January 16, 2013

I have an exam today so I made sure to eat a good, low calorie breakfast even though it’s difficult for me to stomach it with these terrible nerves!


Five strawberries, two honey and oat Belvita breakfast biscuits, and a cup of tea! Wish me luck.

Today has been great so far, food wise. On New Years I decided that I wanted 2013 to be the year I finally reached my goal of losing weight and eventually finding happiness in myself and my body. In order for this to happen, it dawned on me that I would therefore need to adopt a more healthier approach to dieting which includes several changes that I began today (a week late, but I needed time to adjust and get back into a normal routine after the Christmas break!).

These are the changes: – an increased calorie intake limit of 1000 calories – more fruit and vegetables incorporated – making an effort to walk more daily – increasing the amount of water consumed – stressing less about calorie content – allowing myself healthy and yummy snacks – sticking to a bedroom exercise routine I’m really pleased with my choices to be more healthy and give my body what it wants and needs, rather than denying it of certain nutrients for the sake of losing weight, only to stuff my face later on and feel crappy. I want this to be a lifestyle change, mot a quick-fix, crash diet.

Here is what I have eaten so far today, and what I plan to have for dinner in a couple of hours:

B – two honey and oats belvita breakfast biscuits (58)
S – a medium apple (60)
L – rice and chilli con carne (284) with vegetables (30)
S – one raisin brunch bar (150)
D – two wholemeal toasts (210) with peanut butter (68) and banana slices (90)
= 900 calories

I have a really great feeling about 2013.

Right, so as those of you who follow me already know, I’ve returned to restricting mode but with an increased limit of 700 calories (ew it seems so much when I type it but I know it’s the right thing to do) and since I’m having a new start, I thought it’d make sense to sit down for minutes and make a daily food plan. This is what I usually prefer having because it helps to keep the structure and I’m more likely to stick to it if it’s all mapped out and ready. Plus it means I am less likely to give up and binge because I’m eating more now and at regular intervals. On the bus journey home from sixth form, I made two different meal plans – one for the weekdays when I have school, and another for weekends. I thought some of you may be interested in reading what I will be eating and maybe you might want to copy it as it is extremely filling and pretty healthy, not to mention yummy!

Click here!! to read my weekday meal plan

Click here!! to read my weekend meal plan

I feel so motivated and ready to finally start losing weight and feeling good about myself because right now I am just big sack of lard; it’s pathetic. As for today’s intake:

B – toast w/ jam (118) and tea (15)

L – weight watchers beef lasagna (247) eurgh this tasted horrible, I won’t be buying this one again!

S – special k biscuits (98) and medium orange (55)

D – baked beans (60) w/ boiled egg white (17)

= 610 calories

Today has been such a great day! I don’t feel guilty about eating that much because I’m just full and satisfied so there is no chance I’ll be scoffing my face later on. Hopefully I can keep this up for the rest of the week, and the week after that haha. I usually slip up and binge by Wednesday but I don’t see that happening this time, because I’m just feeling so positive about everything.

I hope you’re all have a good day, too!

Today’s intake

November 11, 2012

Today's intake

I went food shopping today and found these yummy little beauties Рfull ready meals for less than 300 calories a bowl. Not only that, but it was on offer, 3 for only £3 so I bought a variety of different meals. One of them was a beef lasagne (as pictured), and the other two was a chicken curry and chilli con carne with rice. Yum.

My intake today was:

B – two belvita breakfast biscuits (116) a small banana (60) and tea (15)
L – chilli con carne with rice (284)
S – medium orange (55)
D – yet to be decided

I’m keeping my calorie intake below 700 calories from now on, which is an increase from the usual 500 but I’ve noticed it’s a lot more difficult to get through the school day on only 500 calories.

Finally back again!

November 9, 2012

A lot has happened in my personal life which has prevented me from updating as regularly as I used to, and it’s also made me eat so much more and gain back far too much weight. I’m not going to go into detail about it, but I got pregnant even though I was on contraception and ended up terminating it. On top of that, I’ve been under a lot of stress with school exams, university applications, and my relationship, but I’m sick of putting junk into my body and feeling like shit so I am ready to start losing weight again.

As I type this, I am lying in bed with my tummy rumbling because I have been awake for over 4 hours but still haven’t eaten breakfast yet. I will in a second, but first I am going to plan out my intake for today so I don’t go out of control. My calorie limit is 600 calories and here is what I plan to eat:

B – two belvita breakfast biscuits (116) and tea w/brown sugar (15)

L – spaghetti and sausages in a tomato sauce (162)

S – medium orange (62)

D – tomato soup (76) w/ melba toast (24)

= 455 calories

Today’s intake

September 14, 2012

B – belvita breakfast biscuit (58) and tea (15)

S – raisins (42) and diet coke (1)

L – sushi snack box (165)

D – turkey (53), sweetcorn (63) w/ gravy (15)

= 412 calories

My apologies!

September 13, 2012

I’m sorry about the lack of updates recently – I’ve been very busy with personal problems which I may or may not post on here, I’m not sure yet. On top of that, my laptop charger broke so I haven’t had access to a private computer to blog with. Right now I am making this post from a computer at school (college) which is risky but neccessary. I hope all of you are doing okay. When I get home I will write a more detailed post, so expect that in a few hours!

Love, Rain xxx

This is just so cute

August 29, 2012

This is just so cute

In a few days (perhaps this weekend, I’m not too sure) the inevitable will happen: I will have to go clothes shopping to buy new things for the new school year, as all my other clothes are becoming much too worn and old. As much as I love buying new clothes and having new clothes, I absolutely despise the actual act of clothes shopping – it’s so frustrating! There’s way too much choice, way too many beautiful clothes that look terrible on me, way too many full-length mirrors, eager to point out my flaws and tell me how awfully fat my thighs look in those jeans. Aaarrgh. I hate it. I hate the crying in the changing rooms. I hate the skinny girls with skinny legs looking at the skinny jeans that my FAT self with my FAT legs would never be able to pull off. I hate trying on sizes that would have fit me last year and would even have been too big for me the year before that, yet having them tight and ill-fitting this year. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it all.

I’m not really looking forward to it but oh god I need new clothes, and new shoes and a new school bag (my other one broke on the final day!) so I’ll have to suck it up and go for it. It will probably just motivate me more, when I come home with all my new stuff and they look HORRIBLE on me as always.

Oh dear.

Today I began fasting, as promised in my previous text post. It’s going pretty well, I think. I have a slight stomach pain but I’m not feeling too hungry or anything and I’m so motivated that I could last for at least three days – it’d be great if I actually made it until school opened though. A clothing website that I’m registered with ( sent me a magazine today with all the new items they have in stock, and as a little treat they also sent a bar of Galaxy chocolate. It was yum. Well, I wouldn’t know if it was yum or not because¬†I didn’t eat any of it! Yeah, not even a tiny square. Instead I shared it out with my family and went upstairs with a mug of ice water. I felt proud which is a change from the feelings I’ve had recently (guilt and shame). I’m still fat though, let’s not forget.

At midday, I decided it would do me good to go for a walk, so I walked quite briskly to the shopping centre (I usually get the bus which is only 10 minutes) and it took me 20 minutes. I looked around at the shops and found a pair of caramel heeled ankle boots for half price! I ended up buying them after trying them on twice and debating with myself in my head. They’re gorgeous.

I’m only allowing myself to have water, diet fizzy drinks, and tea. Sadly we’ve run out of green tea which sucks but normal tea bags will have to do. I haven’t decided yet if I’ll be having my usual black tea with a teaspoon of brown sugar (15 calories) or if I’ll cut out any calories completely. Maybe I should have it with sugar every morning, just to help me keep on with this.

This post is completely all over the place. I don’t think it made any sense. Oh well… Wish me luck!


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